I am all for change. In fact I love and embrace change. It truly can be as good as a holiday.
The only time that I do not like change is when it comes so suddenly and hurts so bad. This kind of change holds no explanation. No real reason that I am aware of. And yet, it is there. In my face. And hurting because it is unexplained and the communication that was so great and a friendship that seemed unbreakable had vanished. Just like that.
I am left assuming… and my assumptions are not good. I may be right. I may be horribly wrong. But if there are no words spoken then I am left to figure this all out in my own head, with my own reasons. I feel betrayed by someone who I thought would be there no matter what. One thing happened and then *BOOM* just like that – hearts were hurt and communication was cut. Although I am in many ways hurt I know that friendship should not be conditional and life must go on.
Maybe one day there will be a conversation with said person and I will understand why things are the way that they are… until then I carry on with life and try not to assume the worst.