Sometimes I just need to write, without thought; to clear my mind… today is one of those days.
My mind is so busy at the moment, with work, with kids, with life. There are a mere four working weeks left of this year, I cannot believe it – while I cannot wait to have time off with my boys I am super stressed at work to get everything finished… I am sure that we were just in August the other day? Lord give me strength to get everything done.
Jason and Grant will be changing schools next year and while they are super excited to be joining Dylan; I know that the transition is going to have some teething problems. They will also be in separate classes for the first time ever. I know that this is the best thing for them as I don’t want them to feel like they have to compete with each other. I want them to grow individually, I want them to have their own friends, I want them to have their own identities and mostly what I really want is for people to recognise them as individuals. I know that separating them at school is a good start. And Dylan will be going into Grade 2, which means a new teacher, new friends (although I have no doubt the group that formed this year is pretty concrete), new routine and more homework, oh the never-ending homework. Lord please protect their gentle hearts as each of my bouncing boys takes on the next chapter in their lives.
Then there is the family things that are playing on my mind of late – I don’t want to go into too much detail. I think it could be heading up to the festive season that is making me think of the family that I don’t have contact with… and not by choice I might add. In actual fact, it is just one person that I am missing so terribly. I miss her smile, her naughty comments and her love for my children. All I can do is pray for her, pray protection over her and pray that the Lord will open her eyes and she will come back to us. Lord please open her eyes, change her heart and bring her back to us, I miss her.
Yesterday I read this blog post and found out about a worldwide fast this amazing lady has arranged – it will take place from 26 – 28 November 2013. I think it is a great idea (and I will be taking part) as this country needs some serious breakthrough, serious change, serious compassion, serious unity. While I don’t have the same feelings of being afraid, I do often find myself asking, ‘What on earth is going on?’ Babies being raped and murdered, pornography in schools, teachers grooming boys into being gay – you have to ask yourself why the world is falling around us. We have to start taking action in one way or another. We have to change small things and hope that the ripple effect spreads fast. Lord as we prepare to fast for this country, bless and protect us.
Last year I made the decision to tell my boys that Santa Clause isn’t real… I know they are little but I really wanted them to know that Christmas is about Jesus and not some made up character. After all, Jesus is the greatest super hero EVER!! Some may say I am cruel, that I shattered their childhood by doing this, and that is fine, everyone is entitled to their own opinion. They still get gifts, obviously, but they know the true meaning behind Christmas and why it is such an important and joyous time of year. And yes, we will still put up a tree and decorate the house, why? Because that makes it magical and it brings joy into our house – and Jesus is all about joy. So, now that they know I actually buy their gifts and not Santa – they got smart! HaaHaa! All three have decided that instead of many gifts, they would each like to choose one really nice, expensive gift. I think I found the perfect gift and I cannot wait until they get to open it because I know that they will love it. Lord help us to remember that this time of year is all about Jesus.
And I think that is all the clearing I need to do right now!