I love that it is a journal of sorts. A place of stored memories. Obviously there are many private memories that I don’t put out there for the world to read but the ones that are here are still just as precious and generally remind me of where I was at, at that particular moment in my life.
I have two pages of this blog that I haven’t made live and I was reading over them and it struck me just how much I have changed and grown over the two years since I started those pages. It was quite amazing to me at the small changes that have occurred without effort and yet they have changed my life, transformed me into a mature human – well, maturity depends on those I am around, HaaHaa! Because sometimes a bit of childlike behaviour is good for the soul.
I love reading back over the years and seeing where I was at, where my boys were at. The heartache, the lessons, the surprises, the anxiety – all of it, the good, the bad and the ugly. Why? Because it reminds me that where I am right now is actually pretty awesome. It reminds me of where I was and where I am now. It reminds me how much I have to be grateful for. It reminds me of the grace and mercy of God and how much He loves and cares for me.
As times goes on we tend to forget some of the things that we have been through, we forget the emotions we felt, the pain, the joy, the surprises, the lessons. I love that I have this place to reflect over and relive some of the best, and the worst, times in my life. I think reliving the worst helps put my present into perspective. While I don’t want to dwell on the negative it is just a reminder to me of how far I have come, how my life has truly transformed on so many levels. I will be honest; a lot of my old posts make me laugh, in hindsight.
And here’s to many more memories shared, stored and later on, reflected on!